Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Everything, and nothing

I will forewarn you, this post will probably have no sense of organization or purpose as I'm not sure what to write! So I am sorry in advance!
Life as usual has been crazy, and for the most part I absolutely love it! Being in Nashville has done so much for my emotional stability, which affects everything that revolves around me! Brads job is going well, kids are doing great, Tyler has had a birthday, he is now two! I can not believe that my baby is two! Abby is registered for kindergarten and very excited about it! We joined our church which was a great thing for us! We have become pretty active and feel good about where we are with our community. My premier business is going okay, I am loving it and very excited about what is going to come my way with it. I am still having trouble getting started and knew this would be the case, as I don't know many people in this area. I know that it will be a slow process, but thats okay I'm willing to keep going strong and work hard to get to where I want to be!

Tyman had a procedure done on his stomach last week and we have received the results, everything is normal. This is great news, but now we are pretty much out of things to try to figure out why he is constipated! So a blessing and disappointment at the same time.

Have you all seen the news lately? (Here is where there is no organization to this!) I'm not sure how I feel about the world right now. On one hand I am extremely proud to be an American, but on the other side, I feel like oh crap what is going to come out of this. What I am talking about it is the killing of public enemy #1, Osama Bin Laden. Although I understand everything that is being said, I keep thinking about what is going to happen now. I think the US did several things correctly, I think he was given a proper burial with the respect to his culture and religion, taken care of. I think from what it sounds like that nothing was really rushed. The government and President took everything into consideration and asked a lot of questions. Although this is a good thing for us, I'm worried about security going up for several days, weeks, and nothing happening, and then after everyone gets back to normal something horrid happening. Lets just say my anxiety level right now is very high! I know that there will be things happening all over the world, possibly in my own back yard! I know that I can not control anything, and that I should always no matter what, live life as today could be my last! I'm just scared. I keep thinking of my kids and what they are going to have to go through! What is their life going to be like?

I guess this is my fault as well, but our society is so hooked on what I call instant gratification. We can get anywhere in a matter of time. We run out of milk, no biggie, jump in the car and drive to the store, or call the hubs and have him pick it up on the way home from work. We rely on our cell phones/computers/electricity/ for everything. I honestly don't know that I could have a garden and make it thrive enough to feed my family. I know I could start a fire, change the way we living moderately, but I don't know that I could make it without the convenience of electricity for long periods of time. I think that we as people are truly good people and would help each other get things done both physically and psychologically. But the thought of not knowing is very scary to me! The thought of retaliation scares me!

I think I am done, I feel like I have just run around in circles the last few minutes! I'm sorry. Thanks for listening!

Friday, February 4, 2011

Not sure what to call this one

Just like everyone else in the world these days, our lives become increasingly busier every day! Believe it or not I like it that way for the most part. I really enjoy being out and about,being with people that I love and just having fun. I love when my kids have play dates for several reasons. It gives my kids something to do, as well as learn from. I like the fact that we all do things differently and my kids get to learn other ways of doing the same things, possibly some way that is better for them, as I do things for my own ease. I enjoy having the adult time and meeting and getting to know new people. I LOVE LOVE LOVE relating to other families that are in the same place in life as we are. I personally feel better about myself when I get out, I am not as anxious, angry or depressed as I can get for long periods of being stuck in side, (the foot surgery killed me, and I am just now starting to recover from it.) My marriage is better when I get out too. I'm just a better person. I have always been very social, shy at times yes, but very social!

As we all know I was thinking about starting a personal business with Premier Designs Jewelry, and I have done it! I am so very excited about this venture and opportunity! I will be working alongside some of the best ladies I have ever met! Good christian women, that are completely family oriented. I don't think I have ever seen as much support in a business as I have this one, now granted there are a lot of great ones out there, but for me this is the perfect one! I am just beyond thrilled with learning, making MY own money to contribute to the family, and most importantly learning from all these lovely ladies and becoming a better person both spiritually and emotionally (the way I react and present myself to others). I just want to feel useful again and help others as well as myself!

Today is a good day! I have a lot in front of me to be happy about, I have healthy kids, a loving husband, and great friends!

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

And there are more tests ( there is TMI, you are forworned)

I took Tyler back to the pediatric GI specialist today at Vandy, and she pretty much didn't know what to say. She said "I'm pretty sure he's just constipated" well DUH I could have told you that, he has been since he was 4 months old and he is will be 2 in April. So I asked her about my concerns with the two different gastric tests they did, (the enema and upper GI) she said I'm not sure, they look like there is no physical deformity, I still don't think that its hirschsprung's disease, and I agree with this, because it can be fatal, and he is obviously not under weight. Although he has put NO weight on since at least July, he is obviously not malnourished,and his height continues to increase.

So she told me that he has something going on but he is so backed up that what is coming out is going around the clumps (I can't think of the word I want to use). So he is just so backed up that it is causing his stomach to not empty. Which I'm not sure that I buy, we have increased his meds since seeing her, and he is having more diarrhea that he had even as an infant. I'm frustrated because surely if it was just constipation since he has been taking a laxative since he was 4 months old it would have cleared out by now and he should be fine.

She is going to run some more tests for allergies to try to rule that out. She is at least doing something. She is kind and patient and answers as much of my questions as she can. Today she even went to the head of the GI clinic to make sure what her plan was, was the best way to proceed. I am very thankful that they are doing something even if it is a slow process.

So the plan is to give Tyler more enemas, probably at least two maybe more, and then quadruple his meds and MAKE him have diarrhea so that it is literally the color and consistancy of ice tea and having this for a few days. I know the next week or so is going to be a pain in the butt, but hopefully it will help him in the long run! I just feel so bad that he can't go with out pain and is starting to get uncomfortable at times.

Sunday, January 30, 2011

I really need to take a computer class

I am so so dang computer illiterate! I am getting so frustrated with myself because I can not fix anything on my computer! I can get on the internet, edit pictures, fill out excel worksheets.

List of things I can't do
* make formulas for excel or anything other than make squares and fill it out
*apparently I can't add pictures to blogs correctly because I have added 5 more pictures to my last post and can not find them or the what I wrote under them. So I just gave up and left it the way it was.
*have no clue how to fix even minor things, I haven't completely gotten my computer set up and I was having problems with internet explorer and that stupid compatability crap, who knows what that crap is, but it was cousing my browser to have an "unexpected error" and not respond so had to completely restart!

I just feel so stupid and incompetent. Not to mention that I can't spell either.

I'm just frustrated, so what programs do you all suggest to help teach me all the things I need/want to know? any help would be greatly appreciated!

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